Category Archives: PEERS

Gun Safety and Self Defense Training was Absolutely Awesome

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Hows my form...maybe something I could work on 😉

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My grip looks good though

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I got a great score

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Because I had a great instructor...whos a bit of a hottie! 😉

Why Lily White

English: Lily in garden

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The term Lily White has a long and ugly past as it applies to American history and its culture.

Specifically, the term Lily-White Movement, as defined by Wikipedia, was an anti-civil-rights movement within the Republican Party in the United States in the late 19th and early 20th centuries. The movement was a response to the political and socioeconomic gains made by African-Americans following the Civil War and the Thirteenth Amendment to the Constitution, which eliminated slavery.  Black leaders gained increasing influence in the party by organizing blacks as an important voting bloc. Conservative white groups attempted to eliminate this influence and recover white voters who had defected to the Democratic Party.

“The lily white movement is one of the darkest and underexamined eras of US Republicanism.”

This movement is largely credited with driving blacks out of the Republican party during the early 20th century, setting the stage for their eventual support of the Democrats.

In essence, the movements goal was to suppress the votes (or in my opinion, the VOICE and Validity) of Black Americans.

As I began to speak up and speak out about a problem that touches far to many lives I realized pretty quickly that most people didn’t want to hear about the reality of the problem. It almost seemed as though the words I spoke offended a falsely innocent view of american culture and the violence that is going on in american children’s lives at the hands of adults, usually the adults that are closest to them.

A few definitions from around the web:

Defined by Double-Tongued.org

1.) Lilywhite

n. a person without a police record; someone who does not trigger suspicions; a clean-skin.

This particular definition is the one that solidified my decision to use the term as the Pseudonym I would blog under. I started blogging specifically because the subject of Childhood Sexual Abuse, a subject that has recently and violently thrust itself into mine and my family’s life, was one that seemed to offend the public so much so that even as a victim/survivor, speaking about any aspect of the issue is highly frowned upon publicly. As I understood it, if I wanted to speak up, if I wanted to talk about this issue, it would have to be done privately and somewhat UNDER THE RADAR, so to speak.

The bottom line is, MY VOICE WON’T BE SILENCED. I WON’T CONFORM AND SHUT UP. But like many things, sometimes the best approach is one that is the least abrasive, for the moment at least.

I have quoted Dr. King many times before on this blog. Here are some that have resonated with me:

He who passively accepts evil is as much involved in it as he who helps to perpetrate it. He who accepts evil without protesting against it is really cooperating with it.
Martin Luther King, Jr.

In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.
Martin Luther King, Jr.

Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.
Martin Luther King, Jr.

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.
Martin Luther King, Jr.
The hottest place in Hell is reserved for those who remain neutral in times of great moral conflict.
Martin Luther King, Jr.

TheFreeDictionary.com

2.) lil·y-white (ll-hwt, -wt)

adj.

1. White as a lily.
2. Beyond reproach; blameless.
3. Informal Excluding or seeking to exclude Black people.
lily-white

adj

1. (Fine Arts & Visual Arts / Colours) of a pure white lily-white skin
2. Informal pure; irreproachable
3. US informal

a.  discriminating against Blacks a lily-white club
b.  racially segregated

Adj. 1. lily-white – restricted to whites only; “under segregation there were even white restrooms and white drinking fountains”; “a lily-white movement which would expel Negroes from the organization”

white

segregated, unintegrated – separated or isolated from others or a main group; “a segregated school system”; “a segregated neighborhood”

2. lily-white – of a pure white color.

achromatic, neutral – having no hue; “neutral colors like black or white

 

Yourdictionary.com

3.) lily-white

adjective

white as a lily

innocent and pure; unsullied: often used sarcastically

practicing discrimination against, or segregation of, nonwhites, esp. blacks

 

White Washing or White Washed has a specific meaning as well and I found would be appropriate to be included into the Pseudonym.

To white wash something would be To conceal or gloss over (wrongdoing, for example).

The biggest problem with CSA is the refusal of adults to acknowledge that there is a problem at all.

This post is a work in progress and may be revised…

 

Bullhead City Couple Arrested After Their Newborn Baby Dies From “Brutal” Sexual Attack

http://blogs.phoenixnewtimes.com/valleyfever/2010/06/bullhead_city_couple_arrested.php

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Bullhead City Couple Arrested After Their Newborn Baby Dies From “Brutal” Sexual Attack

Bullhead City Police Department Police believe Staci Lynn Barbosa and Jonathan Edward Vandergriff brutally raped their one-month-old son.

A Bullhead City couple was arrested yesterday after their 1-month-old baby died as a result of what police are calling a “brutal sexual assault.”

Bullhead City police spokeswoman Emily Montague tells New Times police believe the baby was “raped” by his parents, 19-year-old Staci Lynn Barbosa and 23-year-old Jonathan Edward Vandergriff.

Montague — for good reason — wouldn’t go into detail about the sexual attack but says authorities believe both Barbosa and Vandergriff were involved in raping their one-month-old son.

According to police, at 11:20 a.m. yesterday, police were called to Western Arizona Regional Medical Center’s Emergency Room where a baby was “fighting for his life.”

Police say they saw bruises and sores all over the baby’s body and his eyes were red and swollen shut.

Doctors then told police the baby had several broken ribs, a broken femur, was malnourished, dehydrated, and showed signs of sexual abuse and shaken baby syndrome.

The baby was airlifted to Sunrise Hospital in Las Vegas — the closest hospital with a trauma center, according to Montague — and Barbosa, who brought the one-month-old to the hospital, was immediately taken into custody.

Doctors were not able to save the baby and he died early this morning.

Vandergriff turned himself into authorities yesterday and police served a search warrant at the house where the couple had been living, which turned up marijuana and other items of “evidentiary value.”

Vandergriff and Barbosa were arrested for molestation of a child, child abuse, aggravated assault, and sexual conduct with a minor.

Police say more charges are on the horizon for the two, including murder. Both parents were booked into the Mohave County Jail in Kingman where Vandergriff is being held on a $500,000 bond and Barbosa’s bail was set at $250,000.

On selfishness

In my experience, it seems to be the favorite pastime of a martyr to ask others to listen patiently while they explain how selfish they think you are.

Making jewelry…

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This is a picture of a necklace that one of my friends is wearing. She said she’s had it for years.
I absolutely love it.
So im gonna try to recreate it.
I’ll take a picture of what i come up with.

A Post Secret share from my BFF

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A Post Secret share from my BFF.  I love my friends. They’re awesome.

Website traffic explosion…

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I’ve noticed that in the past week I’ve had a few posts that had an unusually large amount of traffic.

This of course has me scratchin my noggin. I started this blog in January and under a pseudonym for privacy purposes.

Im not a great writer and don’t exactly have a well organized blog so the traffic explosion has made me a curious lil kitten.

If you don’t mind sharing, i would love to know who my visitors are.

I would love it if anyone who wishes to share any info about yourself, name, location in the universe, what brought you to my site, and of course…what you think of the site.

No pressure, you can say as much as you like or nothing at all. Im just curious about the individuals that are only represented by some numbers on my site stats page.

I’d love to get some feedback from my sites patrons.

All comments are welcome and very much appreciated.

Thank you kindly,
LilyWhite

Saturday Night Lights

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Saturday Night Lights always seem to be blue and flashing. This picture was taken out the window of my bar after Doucebag-dinner-disaster the other night. I went to the bar to blog and ended up wondering why, for some people, a night out for a few drinks and fun ends up in a bar fight and blue lights. Sucks for them, kinda entertaining for me.

Oh well. Just another Saturday night at a bar.

Unleash the FURY

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This is the picture that has sent me over the edge. While me and my children suffer daily my husband is enjoying his new found freedom. This is a picture of him and his cousin after enjoying a day at the beach. His cousin drove from upstate ny to vacation here and didn’t once concern herself as to the wellbeing of my children. Matter of fact, since this whole thing began, she hasn’t contacted me even once. Compassion is something she lacks.

Trust no one

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Trust no one.

Since the dawn of time

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Mother’s have fought the same battles with their teenagers. This particular battle is one that I’m losing, and proudly so. I love my children’s desire to express their individuality.

My husband is engaged!

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Really, could this person do anymore to disrespect me and our family and children.

Diamonds: A year exposed to extreme pressure and heat. Surviving through the support of family and friends.

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What makes a diamond so special? After a year that almost broke me and my family, we have, much like a diamond, withstood the intense pressure and come out of it with an unbreakable bond and a shine that sparkles even in the absence of light. This post is dedicated to my family.

Diamond, the king of gemstones. It is symboloized by the sun in astronomy: a testament to its powerful self sustaining energy, Diamond is a symbol of abundance and can help people to accumulate wealth. Diamond Folklore and Mythology In Ancient times, talismans were mad of diamond to ward off cowardice. It was thought to enhance invulnerability. Traditionally, it was beleived that the diamond’s powers only work when given freely from one person to another. It was thought to ensure love and harmony and dispel anger. It was one of the 12 stones used in the breast plate of the High Priest Aaron to protect him from injury. Diamond is used traditionally in modern times as the focus stone of engagement rings. Nowadays, we all know a diamond engagement ring is the most important jewelry purchase in a man’s life and the most significant to the woman who receives it. Diamond is the birthstone of people born in the month of April and is also used as the symbol of a sixty-year anniversary, such as a Diamond Jubliee. However, the symbolism of diamonds goes beyond romance. Through centuries diamonds have been a symbol of love, excellence and purification. Diamond, because of its remarkable hardness and clarity, also still reigns supreme in its symbolism of power, strength, brilliance and unparalleled beauty. Diamonds are enchanting treasures that have fascinated mankind throughout the centuries. Many regarded them as magical. Not only were they rare and beautiful, no tool could cut them and even the fiercest fire would leave the diamonds unscathed. Diamonds have been used symbolically because of their extraordinary physical properties. It was said that the Greeks believed diamonds were tears of the gods. Romans believed they were splinters of fallen stars. In Tibetan Buddhism, also known as Vajrayana (Diamond Vehicle), diamonds are an important symbol and the Diamond Sutra is one of the most popular texts. [ ] In ancient India, diamonds were not cut for fear that they would lose its magical properties. During the Middle Ages, it was believed that diamonds would grow darker in the face of guilt and shine brightly for the innocent. Another belief is that in the presence of poison, diamond would also change color. The rainbow colors of the prism were thought to give one magical power over Evil Eyes. According to occultist myths, it was believed that diamonds possess several supernatural powers, e.g. a diamond’s hardiness can only be broken by smearing it with fresh goat’s blood. Or a diamond gives victory to he who carries it bound on his left arm, no matter the number of enemies. It was also believed to have been used as a healing stone. Such as a way of detecting and detoxifying poison, opening spirituality channels and assisting calming creatures. Today, diamonds are used to symbolize eternity and love. The first diamond engagement ring can be traced to the XV century, when the Archduke Maximilian of Austria gave the first diamond ring engagement to Mary of Burgundy in 1477. At that time, the diamond was used in its natural crystalline structure. The octahedral or eight-sided formation, like 2 pyramid joined at the base, was mounted with the lower pyramid completely hidden in the ring setting and the upper half rising out of it. Light would be reflected from all four sides of this exposed upper point. The structure of this diamond mirrors the symbolism of the Egyptian pyramids. The union in 1477 was celebrated by the exchange of a diamond betrothal ring which would have been an early example and perhaps the first royal one.

http://ezinearticles.com/?Diamond-Symbolism-and-Mythology&id=202446

Diamond The only gemstone composed of one pure element, carbon, whose molecules are bonded with perfect symmetry in every direction. This perfect atomic structure is what makes it the hardest natural substance on the planet [a 10 on Moh’s scale], as well as an excellent conductor of heat and electricity. It also, as Geshe Michael Roach writes in The Diamond Cutter, “has the highest degree of refraction of any naturally occurring substance in the universe.” The diamond’s physical properties of clarity and hardness have given rise to it being a symbol of power, strength, innocence and incorruptibility, longevity, constancy, and good fortune. Of course, there are also the famously cursed diamonds, like the Hope, as well as an old Persian belief that the diamond was a source of sin and sorrow, which is not so unreasonable, considering how much blood has been shed in the mining, selling, and acquiring of the stone. When I was writing Rumor I became intrigued by a branch of diamond lore that claims the gem drives away madness and protects against ghosts, chimeras, enchantments and sorcery. And I was drawn to a photograph of the Javeri diamond pictured in Christopher Cavey’s book.

Diamond Mythology PostBy Avi Paz Group At 05.09.2010 Diamonds were first discovered in India and figure prominently in Hindu mythology, which believes that the stones were formed when lightning struck rocks. Diamond historian J. Willard Hersey notes that traditional Hindus referred to ordinary rock crystal as “unripe” diamonds, while the genuine stones were called “ripe diamonds.” Diamonds were also known in Persian culture. Hersey summarizes a Persian creation myth as follows: When God created the world, he had no need for diamonds, gold, or other precious metals and gems. But Satan noticed that Eve loved the brightly colored flowers in the Garden of Eden and created gemstones in the same seductive hues to tempt humans. Thus Persian mythology sees diamonds and gems as the source of much crime and suffering. The belief that diamonds are an antidote to poison was common in many cultures. In the Middle Ages, they were also believed to change color in the presence of a poison, while a diamond’s brilliance gave its possessor power over the evil eye. Black, or carbonero, diamonds carry their own wealth of superstitious beliefs. Ancient Indian culture perceived black diamonds as similar to the eye of a snake and associated them with Yama, the god of death. But traditional Italian society held that black diamonds have the power to reconcile fighting or estranged couples. If both partners touched a black diamond, their troubles would disappear. In Borneo, if a diamond contained a gray or black inclusion, the well in which it was found was abandoned. According to Malaysian belief, these gray or black inclusions represented the diamond’s soul, and if it were removed from the mine the mine would “die.”

http://www.avipaz.com/DiamondMythology

The word “Diamond” comes from the greek word “Adamas”, which means indestructible. It is the only gem known to man that is made of a single element, Carbon, besides graphite. Diamond is completely made of Carbon atoms (Chemical Composition -‘C’) crystallised in a cubic (isometric) arrangement.

http://books.google.com/books?id=_WI86J88ydAC&pg=PA34&hl=en

NOVA Online | The Diamond Deception | The Science Behind the Sparkle

The hardest substance known, diamond is prized for its exceptional luster and ability to break up white light into all colors of the rainbow (known as dispersion), which lend the gem its famous fiery brilliance.

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/diamond/sparkle.html

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/diamond/inside.html

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diamond

What next?

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Putting one foot in front of the other, walking towards a brighter future and a new beginning.

Who the hell is Jennifer Varner?

curious…

hmmm……

someone explain what this is please cause im confused.